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The Fight Of My Life

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Today is only the January the 5th 2016. As I sit back and think of all that I have been through and yesterday was thinking even before the New Year came in, of all that I have done and where will I go when this physical form of life is over, had me in complete meltdown. Today is a new day and I keep in my head everything that I want to do for God . I listen to my pastoer Kevin Williams bible study yesterday Proverbs 16. Oh how I love wisdom and to please the Lord but often find myself guding off the course I want to go. All I want is to please our Lord and for God to please back with me . Searching for acceptance in this cruel world is very challenging and complex but the last thing and the only thing that really really hurts is not being accepted of GOD ! That means more to me than anyone or anything. It doesn’t feel good to be looked down on. I have so much I want to do for people that don’t have as much as I do. I don’t have much $$ but I do have compassion, respect and just a warmness for others that are down in their spirit because I know how that feels. Someday I will have plenty of Group homes for our Veterans and I plan on having a couple of facilities for people that don’t have anywhere to sleep or eat. This is my goals. We throw away much and give to none most of us. I believe the scripture reads Matthews15″Lord, help me!” 26And He answered and said, “It is not good to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs.” 27But she said, “Yes, Lord; but even the dogs feed on the crumbs which fall from their masters’ table.”…This just gave me chills that took wisdom and a leap of Faith to do what she did. This type of Faith is ongoing and for me ,I named my journal ” The Fight Of My Life”